now i'm finding that nothing you plan on is certain.....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
something better
i am working on a longer post, it's taking me some time to think on things before i go typing and hitting PUBLISH POST.
there is a lot of uncertainty in my life right now (especially considering that i am looking for employment alongside 100.000+ others in America!!!!) but i have a strange strange peace about it. i am trying to keep my eyes on the silver lining right now and trying to salvage whatever good has come out of the past few years and focusing on that.
i am ridiculously optimistic because i have finally realized that it is not up to me at all! ha! control? what control?!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
unemployed
apparently they were looking for someone new and gave me no notice.
i am glad that Tuesday was full of snow and Obama-rama.
today i spent time with people who made me feel valued and loved, esp b/c my friend Simon watched "Beaches" with me.
now that is the sign of a true friend, although, he didn't cry. i have seen that movie at least 20 times and i cry every time. now onto praying for whatever is next. i can't be unemployed for very long, my bills won't pay themselves. bah!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
little things
because i have had to get my named legally changed back to my maiden name, there have been a few recent phone call conversations with bill-paying or insurance renewal and i have been seeking how to get my name changed on my cards/bills/etc.
when i talk to the person on the other end of the line and say, "I need to have my name changed to Lisa Wright", most of the time, without missing a beat, the person on the other end of the line is like "well Congratulations!" thinking that i am having my name changed because i just got married.
i usually have this thought while saying "thank you very, very much" [SUCKAAAAAAAAH, you don't know that you just congratulated me for something that NOBODY wants to say congratulations for, but i will TAKE it!]
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
s'funny
Carla:
Leeeese! I heard crying outside and I am too scared to go to my car.
me:
whuaa?
Carla:
I hear noises every morning and sometimes it spooks me out, but I was just in the kitchen and that noise was RIGHT outside. I cannot open the door and knowingly go outside.
me:
[jumps out of bed, pulls some pants on]
okay.
we walk downstairs, open the front door, there is nothing to be noted. one of our neighbors is walking to his car, a few houses down. no explanations for the 'crying' noise.
Carla:
okay, thanks. sorry to wake you up.
me:
buuuuuuuuuuh. [zombie noise]
as i climbed the stairs back to my room, i shuttle my cat back into the room so that i can lock the door. then i promptly got scared.
it wouldn't have gotten to me except that Carla had described it as 'crying'. something is 'beeping', something is 'banging', something is 'knocking', those i could deal with.
crying? i don't do ghosts or wild animals with creepy noises. also in this category would be any type of neighbor who takes their morning walk to cry on our porch. so yeah, then i started freaking out.
this is when i wish there was a man in the house, so that he can change my oil and go scare the weeping ghosts from our front porch. boo!
Monday, January 12, 2009
i guess i missed the memo
what i sent:
Seth,
i tried calling you and i left a message but i wasn't sure if you'd gotten it or not. anyhoo, i was hoping to catch up, hear how you are doing. anyway, i won't take too much of your time, just wanted to say happy 2009. hope to hear from you.
-lisa
what he wrote back (a day after i sent mine):
lisa,
Things are going well for me here. My job has turned into a career path and I am getting to do some traveling with it as well. I have adjusted well here and have made many friends. Beaux is doing great. I get to climb a good bit now and am enjoying the different seasons for different types of climbing. I appreciate the good wishes and wish the same for you. I really do not think it is healthy for either of us to maintain contact with one another. I hope that you find your path in life and are able to find happiness in whatever you choose to do.
-Sethi wanted to yell and push him down [old-school style like we were little kids]. i wanted to write a snappy quip back, i wanted him to know that i wouldn't have contacted him AT ALL had i known that he didn't think it was healthy for us to 'maintain contact' with one another. again, he made that decision and didn't tell me, and somehow i am supposed to read his mind?
so yeah.
just needed to vent a little.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
electronic mail
i guess i know that he doesn't even have to respond, it'd just be nice to hear from him. i don't really know that i can pinpoint the real exact reason i may have emailed him, but bah, it's too late now!
i will keep you updated if he gets back to me.
must sleep. work will be hard if i don't.