so, lately i've been comparing my life to walking down a dead end road.
marriage was a dead end.
seminary was a dead end.
getting a job at that book company was a dead end.
waiting tables for 6 months was a dead end.
now, my nanny job has become a dead end.
not that i thought i'd be a nanny forever, wait Peter Pan, children do get older, they won't need me forever. but i did think that at most i would be employed by this family until next July and then i would try and become a teacher. that was my plan.
that was the plan until i realized that the family i work full-time for gave me 2 weeks off for Christmas because they don't need me and they are not going to be paying me for any time off. AND on top of this, when i voiced my insight on how Nanny-etiquette would dictate a situation like this should be handled, they met me with resistance and insisted that they should not pay me. i tried to stand firm and they eventually met me 1/4 of the way, AND in the process said something along the lines of "Jill thinks we're overpaying you enough as it is....." and the father went into a little bit of a rant about how i only have one child while the other is at school. blah blah blah.
let me just say that in NO circumstances should an employer mention to an employee that they want to keep that they think they are 'overpaying' them.
wow. that was such a slap in the face. and the worst part is that i had to take their offer because i have no other options. i have no savings to fall back on. i don't have parents that can shower me with unwarranted monies. i have too much pride to ask people for money. so i have to grin and bear it with this job until i find something else. on top of that, there seem to be 100,000,000 hoops to jump through in order to become a teacher in Wake county. awesome.
it's all just in time for Christmas.
i know that this year has been great and that i have learned so much, but i am still just feeling so
dis:
-enchanted
-illusioned
-gusted
-appointed
-couraged
and since i've got 2 weeks off, i know myself well enough to know that i won't be nearly as proactive as i will need to be in order to find another job....but i want to prove myself wrong. BLAH so much to think about!
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how did the two weeks go?
the two weeks were positive and negative:
the positive:
i did some work at my house that NEEDED to be done, desperately so. and i got to sleep more than usual and have a little fun pretending not to have any resposibilities.
the negative:
i am missing about 2 weeks pay from my wallet AND i have an ER bill to pay off AND all my other bills don't care a bit that i had 2 weeks off unpaid.
so i was stressing, and now that i am back at work, i am so totally bored/unchallenged and i am constantly thinking of ways i could find another job so i can quit this one.
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